So I thought I would add another picture to show his not so goofy side. I need to share with everyone what an incredible husband he is. I have been having a hard week. Worries and doubts creep in to my mind. I think too much! Anyway, aaron shared something with me which really showed how much this man loves me. We were talking with the bishop about the adoption and aaron gets kind of choked up and said that the most difficult thing about the infertility struggles that we have, has been seeing me not being able to be a mother. He said that one of the most important gifts (given by our father in heaven) for men that belong to our church is that they are given is the ability to hold the priesthood and that if he lost the ability to have the priesthood (by not living the standards of the church), he would be devistated. It is so important to have that priesthood. He then proceeded to say that one the most important gifts given to women is to be a mother and that for me not to be able to fulfill that roles hurts him because he knows i am hurting. How freakin amazing and selfless is he. I seriously get down on my knees every night and thank my Heavenly Father for Aaron. 
I guess it has been a while since my last posting, but I have been so busy. We are getting things ready for the baby and we are still really excited. I, personally, have been some ups and some downs. Satan really knows how to hit ya where it hurts. Most days I have been really excited about this adoption and things are looking really good. We are emailing the birth mom and we even get to meet her on the 22nd of this month. So that has been great, but then in strolls Satan putting these awful thoughts into my head. At moments I have been so scared that this adoption wont work out. That the birth mom will change her mind at the last minute. I have been there before and it sucks!!! I really dont know if my heart could handle that again. I start thinking that with my luck it will probablly fall through again. BAD, BAD, BAD Satan. Someone needs to ground him. anyway I am also more afraid of disapointing everyone else, I know it hurt my family a lot too and I dont want them to be sad. AGGHHHH! I think I really need everyones prayers. I did have aaron give me a blessing and I know heavenly father is ready to bless me, but i just cant help being scared and I wonder if I am just human and this is normal or if I need some more faith. sorry I needed to vent!
On to more enjoyable things. Halloween was fun. Aaron and I created a costume. We made a vending machine costume. I will add some pics that I stole from other friends blogs (sorry-my pics turned out just awful). The costume was a hit! Aaron wore the costume and I was the vendor that stocked the candy. It actually despensed candy. The kids loved it. On halloween there was a party at the school and was fun a really fun work day. The kids at school are great. We went to the trunk or treat (where we had lots of random people take pictures of our costume) and then we played video games with my little brother kort and his friend and then we bowling. It was really fun.
Like I said, before we have been emailing the birthmom and I really enjoying the emails. I feel like I am really starting to get to know her. She seems like such a neat person. I can not wait to meet her on the 22nd. I hope the weather is good for travel. My boss has been amazing about the adoption. I am getting maternity leave (6 to 8 weeks) and when I come back to work I get to bring the baby to the school nursery. What a weight off of my shoulders. I will be able to still work but be close enough to my baby that I can see him any time during the day. How, Cool!!!! This job has been such a blessing. One thing is that I actually enjoy my job and the people I work with are so great! Anyway enjoy the random pictures and hopefully you will hear from me sooner next time.
So for those of you who may not know......We are adopting! Yipee!!!!! Aaron was dropping me off at school after my lunch break and we recieved the much anticipated phone call. So on 10/24/2008 at 12:36 Aaron and I found out we are adopting a baby boy in January. January 18th to be more specific, but who knows if it will be a little sooner. I am so excited. I had to go back to work after I found out and told all of my coworkers. They were so thrilled for me. Of course I called my parents and my sisters first. I haven't called everyone in my family yet but it has been kind of a crazy day. When I ended the phone call with our case worker I just started bawling. Tears of joy of course! My sister is having a baby in early January so the two babies will be very close in age. How cool. I always thought it would be cool to have a baby the same time as one of my siblings and now it may actually happen. WOW! As always there is a risk with adoption. But my wonderful friends (thanks Dot and Kara) and family reminded me that there is a risk with regular pregnancy too. I really feel that I deserve to be excited and also nervous that everything will go okay (just like a mom who is having her own baby biologically). Anyway we have less than three months to get ready! CRAZY. Luckily we have lots of infant and 0-3 months baby boy clothes, a crib, stroller, car seat, toys, blankets, and some other random stuff already. Well I guess we will see if I can patiently for three months. Yah Right!
Do you ever have these moments when you seem to be busy every night and yet nothing ever seems to get accomplished? My week was so busy and I didn't get anything done, but it was really fun.
Last weekend: I went to Rawlins to watch my little brother play some football and of course his team won. It was really fun but really cold. Laramie was pretty warm and so Aaron and I left with out any warm clothes. Luckily Aaron's sister Jenna and her Husband let us borrow their jackets. After the game we visited Jenna and her two little ones and then we visit Camille and Leah (this is aarons brothers wife and daughter). I was so good to see everyone. We went back to Laramie and just chilled the rest of the week. Sunday I went over to some friends house and had some really good desserts and just chatted.
During the week: Well I had to work. I still like my job! Afterwork on monday i had to attend a blood borne pathagens training and then went home and cleaned. Aaron Has been working like mad painting our apartment complex (for a little extra dough) and so he was busy with that all week. He did take Thursday off to go to my sister heathers special olympic Dinner. Kind of a tradition now. It has been the third year in a row that we have got to attend. So Thursday was really busy. Before the dinner I had a relief society meeting and then the dinner and then home to prepare for our new weekly "Office Party" a few friends from our ward came over to watch "The Office". Last sunday we all started talking about how much we loved the show and we made plans to have goodies and watch the show together. It was a blast and we hung out way past our bedtimes. Just to show how much we like the show Monday aaron and I watched season one of the office for our Family Home Evening. Friday was date night for us and we went to eat at the best Thai food restaurant - Anongs. I had Pad Thai and Aaron had a Yellow curry. We shared poststickers for and appetizer and fried bananas for dessert( is this with one s or two?). Anyway, I know we did some other stuff in between but not much worth mentioning.
This weekend: Saturday Aaron went to the Utah vs. Wyoming game and..... we lost but he still enjoys going to the games. I stayed home (no way do I want to freeze my butt off to watch a sport I dont typically enjoy). I actually had to prepare a Relief Society lesson. I stayed home to do that and just watched a movie. Later that night we went to visit our good friends Brandon and Dot and thier two adorable boys. We had not seen them in a while and it was fun to visit and then play some games. I was wide awake when I came home at 11 pm and thought it would be fun to watch a newly purchased dvd (short circuit 2). Some movies are funnier late at night. I had not seen that movie in years. I went to bed at 1:30 thinking -I am going to regret this. Luckily sunday(today) I went to sacrament meeting and the rest of the meetings were canceled after sacrament meeting. Our Gym floor just got refinished the varnish smell was so strong that several people were not feeling well. I really didnt notice it until they opened the overflow and the smell just flooded in. It didnt give me a headache, But I did notice it bothered some of the pregnant moms and older people- so I think it was a wise choice. I didnt have to give my lesson in relief society- I guess I will save it for January. So I went home at nine sunday morning (yes we have 8 am church) and took a long nap! and I loved every minute of it. This evening I got together and Tim and Karas home, with them and Charlie and Vanessa, Robert and Lindsey, Dot and Brandon, and Spencer and Brittney to have a little pot luck dinner and some games. It was really fun and a great stress relief for me. Now I am home typing this insanely long blog while aaron is doing laundry and cleaning the second bedroom. Life couldnt get any better! LOL. Enjoy the pictures of Korts football game. He is such and awesome brother.
